Wednesday, 30 November 2011

Ini untuk Ibu.

Aku sedih, bila dia memberikan aku sesuatu yang dia tak mampu.
Aku marah, bila dia ditengking oleh sang raja.
Aku tak sanggup lihat perih yang dia tanggung.
Tiada apa yang mampu untuk aku lakukan.
Tiada apa yang lebih indah selain cinta aku terhadap dia.

Aku tahu dia letih,
Aku tahu dia sakit,

Biar aku lapar kurus kering.
Biar hidup aku untuk si dia.
Biar aku ditikam dengan pisau tajam,
Biar mati aku untuk si dia.

Nanti sampai suatu masa, aku mati, 
aku mahu dia tahu semua yang aku buat untuk dia.

Ini untuk Ibu :)

Saturday, 19 November 2011

Melihat dia pergi,

Sometimes I get so happy being with you that I just wanna hug you. 
But then, I get scared that you will hug me back.
And then it gets too damn hard when you decide, its already time to let go.
Times are getting hard, and the weak are about to get weaker.

And yeah. I miss you.

Monday, 14 November 2011

Nov14 : Nota untuk si Pelangi.

Kehadapan si Pelangi.
Aku tagih warnamu,
Letih aku tunggu,
Perih aku tak mahu.
Mananya si Pelangi?
Aku tagih awanmu.

Kehadapan si Pelangi.
Aku berdiri tiang tegak,
Melutut rebah aku batak,
Sakit aku biar marak.
Mananya si Pelangi?
Aku tagih ketawa riak.

Kehadapan si Pelangi.
Aku minta jangan berundur,
Bukan aku marah, cuma tegur,
Kemari sayang, biarku lentur.
Huh, Mananya si Pelangi?
Aku tagih cahaya tuk tidur.

Kehadapan si Pelangi
Usahlah merajuk kayak beruk,
Aku tak mahu kau renyuk,
Janganlah monyok teruk.
Kemari wahai Pelangi.
Aku yang teruk ni, mau pujuk,

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

Pergi mati.

Aku nak sampaikan pesan buat orang orang tersayang,
yang rasa diri kalian itu banyak duit.
Pergi jahanam la kau orang dengan duit kau orang, aku tak luak la duit kau orang tu.

Lebih 10 kali aku bilang, yang aku tak ada duit. Huh, untung la kalian banyak duit, kan? 
Boleh enjoy sana sini, boleh beli barang itu ini.
Tapi jangan heret aku, kalau aku bilang aku tak mahu.
Jangan caci maki aku, jangan putus saudara, jangan laa tarik muka, kawan :)

Aku tak minta apa apa dari kau orang, aku cuma minta tolong faham.
Aku bukan la macam kau orang,
famili kaya raya, anak orang berada, tinggal di rumah 2 tingkat, kereta mahal. 
Aku bukan la cemburu buta, aku tak mati dengan semua benda benda itu. 
Kadang kadang aku terasa rimas apa yang kau orang agungkan tu. Huh, entah lah.

Nilai aku untuk kau orang, cuma seorang manusia biasa.
Tiada istilah duit terpampang di muka aku..
Aku cuma boleh bayar kalian dengan senyum tawa yang terbahak bahak.
Itu sahaja yang aku mampu. Bukan lah aku kedekut untuk keluarkan duit. 
Manalah tahu, ada yang lebih penting untuk itu.

Kau orang mungkin tak sedar, kau orang mungkin mengata. 
Tapi tak mengapa, aku faham perangai manusia. 
Niat aku bukan untuk menghentam,
aku penat melayan karenah karenah manusia tolol yang agungkan duit..
Hey, untuk apa? Cukuplah sekadar biasa biasa saja. 
Untuk makan di TGI Fridays? Untuk beli Louis Vuitton?

Peliknya kehidupan urban, belanja terus sampai mati ya bang? 
Buat kalian yang banyak duit, pergi mati dengan duit duit kau orang.
Buat kalian yang terasa tempelak aku, aku minta maaf. Aku harap kalian faham. 
Aku mahu tidur tersenyum, ada wang kita ketemu lagi ya.

//Efek Rumah Kaca - Belanja Terus Sampai Mati.

Tuesday, 18 October 2011


Do you believe in fate?

Fate definition :
Something that unavoidably befalls a person; fortune; lot: It is always his fate to be left behind.

Coincidence, thats all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence. There are no miracles. There is no such thing as fate. Nothing is meant to be - (500) days of Summer

"These were the last few lines from the movie 500 days of summer which I just happened to watch (yes, for a change and after long). I think this is a particularly refreshing take on how one could interpret the events in one’s life. I for all this time was closer to the notion that there is a reason for what’s happening around you and in particular with you. This meant I could still remember that first glance, that first phone call, that first conversation and so many more firsts that even today I would be ready to believe there ought to be a reason for it happening with me. But for all I know it could have just been coincidence. I know it takes away the fairy tale story line out of the plot but now I think it could well be true but my heart still doesn’t want me to believe it."

Every man has his own destiny, the only imperative is to follow it, to accept it, no matter where it leads him :)
takenote : Everything happens for a reason. And when fate happens, look for the good in it as it is there.

Sunday, 16 October 2011

You made my day !

..3 2 1 anddd action ! 
Hoh, dah lama gua tak update blog disbbkan sangat busy ! Haih.
Butt this time, I really need you, blog, I don't have any social network at this time :D

Today, i had my first date after a year :D 
and for sure, I fall in love with someone <3
Everything is like this,

I love her smile,
I lover her hair, (definitely)
I love her knees,
I love how one eye is higher up on her face then other eye,
I love how she looks in my Clash T-shirt,
I love how she looks when she's sleeping,
I love the sound of her laugh,
I love how to hear this song every time I think of her,
I Love how she makes me feel, like anything's possible, or like life is worth it.

Magaddd ! *slappp me*
Am I dreaming? lol.
Holding hand in IKEA, We scrag meatballs together! (google translate pls :P)
Everything happened so fast andd I can't believe that I am someone boyfriend :P

Okay, i love you. Thanks for bright up my day <3 !

Tuesday, 2 August 2011

Happy Ramadhan and Happy Fasting !

I am here to pledge forgiveness for any wrong doing which i've done direct or indirect.
I wanna wish to all of my buddy and muslims, Happy Ramadhan and Happy Fasting :)
Hoping together we celebrate this Ramadhan al-Mubarak with full of blessing and fill it with good deed!

#Hihi, i wont update my blog until Rayaa.
I've been busy with my business stuffs :P
I would like to invite you you and you to my bazaar !
Desa Pandan, tent 16 :)

I wanna go somewhere and I don't care where.

I wish I could go away from here.
But I don’t know when to start, where to go.
In the dark, it’s cold and wet here. 
I’m too scared to see anything.
Who is going to hold me if I fall?

I wish I could run through the trees.
Feel, pain while mountains burning there
See, there are some who don’t want to see
But I have to keep going through.
And leave the pasts.

Can you show a thousand emotions?
Can you show how beautiful world it is?

Let’s move on, away from here.
This world won’t be a tragedy.
Cause I’m still here, breathing now
We could see everything in this world

Believe me somehow we can make it so bright
Why do we feel like we can’t survive?
We should throw it all away and go.
We all fall behind the times.

Keep going to an unknown place where
To know how I can breathe so easy
I’m just trying to be myself.
This is just a beginning.

I found that place where we always went before
Someday we all return to the forest. 
To the ground, air or space 
Souls are flowing around here 
And it will never end.
LOVE is not enough a word for you.

originally from me, butterbahn deathsy <3

Thursday, 21 July 2011

Chelsea Asia Tour 2011

Oh my, I'm so in love with Malaysia vs Chelsea match. 
It was totally superb ! All Malaysia players did a great job.
They show us their totally defensive play are succeed.
Much respect to Farizal Marlias and the others :)
It was unexpected match. Supposed to be the match ended with 0-0.
Didier Drogba freekick hit Malaysia right crossbar.
But the linesman referee has claimed it was a goal.
Uhh, it's time to use technology on football game. 
Congratulations to both teams and i hope they will come to Malaysia again :)
and and I'm ready to hear those provocation from others club hooligans :)
I really don't give a damn. You're on , man :)
Result : Malaysia 0 - 1 Chelsea

#Keep the Blue Flag Flying High !

Sunday, 17 July 2011

30 hari mencari pasal.

Mm, i don't know what i feel. I feel random. 
Err, besok ada presentation. Nak prepare pun rasa malas. Tak tahu la kenapa.
Haha, tengok kiri kanan. Semua dah berubah. Ada yang dah kerja, ada yang dah kahwin. 
Err. Aku sorang je tak berubah lagi.
Tidur pun bangun 2-3 petang. Sumpah tak sukaa. Terasa rugi je sehari :(
Terasa nak buat macam 30 hari mencari cinta tu la. Boleh?
Atleast ada orang boleh kejut aku bangun pagi. Suara mcm Shila Amzah tu pun jadi la -_-'' 
Alarm clock aku memang tak jalan la :P
Oh will you be mine for 30 days? 
Okay i feel worst. 

#Beribu sesalan - Shila Amzah punya part :P

Monday, 11 July 2011


Okay, i wanna share something about what happened to our country lately.
and i wanna conclude all this things. I talk about what i saw, what i heard.
Mm, i am not a pro-government, and not a pro-pakatan rakyat or whatsoever.
I just an observer.
Im gonna show you some of the pros and cons.
Can you conclude? Watch and think. 
Aku tau ni kerja dorg. Tapi mcm tak ada sifat humanity. betul tak?

Lepas tu isu perkauman naik. Aku tengok orang melayu maki bangsa bangsa lain dekat wall.
Menyalak sumpah seranah bangsa lain. Apa yang korg nak?
Kalau korang ni orang orang kerajaan, kenapa tak sokong Najib? 
1 Malaysia. United all races. Tapi nak menyalak lagi?
Mcm nii la melayu tipikal. Aku bukan nak kutuk bangsa aku. 
Korang nak 13 Mei tu balik ke? Mak bapak korang kena rodok semua?  
This demonstration shows everything.
Media? Lagi la banyak menipu.
Patriot? Kenapa dorang ada dekat situ?
Facebook? Masih ramai yang menyalak.
Politik? Semua korupsi. Aku tak nampak lagi yang mana betul.
Berhenti la provokasi.
Fikir la sendiri mana baik, mana buruk. Jangan jadi mcm budak kecik.
Kena jentik, dah nak menyalak.

Wednesday, 6 July 2011

Confession of the day !

*glass break sound effect
Err, I shouldnt but i don't know. I feel random. :)
I miss my pasts being together with this baby. I miss her laugh, i miss her smile.
But this is all my memories. I should leave all this fucking things behind.
The best way is move on. Yeah, I did. I really did. 
Past is past. Everything happens for a reason. For sure, i have no regrets.
As a professional god creature, yeah we're still in a relationship.. as a friend.
But i want you to know that i..
*cengkerik sound effect. okay bye

Friday, 1 July 2011

July, 1. Rainy day, I am in love.

Okay, so this is July 1, and it’s still cold, gray, and rainy around here. But, you’ve got to love it. Here’s why and what i am doing in rainy day. Let's enjoy a rainy day :)

1. Going for a walk
It sounds stupid, but there is no bigger pleasure than walking along the road in the middle of city, think and meditate :D

2. Take pictures
It is so fascinating, the rain. It makes me feel a deep contact with nature. And then, rain is beautiful to see. I will go around the town and take some pictures, it is an amazing way to discover a new side of the place where I live.
3. Listen to some good music
If I’m looking at my personal collection of albums I’m getting pissed off by myself because I have plenty of great music that I have never had time to listen to. You know the feeling, I prefer oldies song to listen or British pop. Time to listen something new, open up your ears and mind!

4. Reading
A rainy day is the perfect moment for start reading the book that is sitting next to our bed since a while. Turn off the TV and radio, listen to the sound of rain drops and let myself fall into the magic of reading. Lala~

5. Enjoy the Scenery
How every street, car, traffic, and neon light is doubled by it’s reflection on the wet street.  The feeling of rain on my face, the wind blows to my body <3 

6. Take a nap
Probably I will never get this opportunity again, in the next busy days. Goodnight. Have sweet rainy day :)

Tuesday, 28 June 2011

ChurpChurp Night Race !

Join me and other Churp Churp community members in the #Churp2race! 
Lets see who will win the iPad 2, the Canon S95 or the HTC Desire! *pulls up sleeve !

Friday, 24 June 2011

Overnight with my Drugs.

Overnight, we're alive ! 
We're sitting on a chair, doing an assignment, talking, joking, 
singing like a fool, play a 'tadika' games, brainstorming and more. 
It's my daily routine with my drugs in the night. 
Sitting for 6 - 7 hours at our playground that we called 'RNK' . 
Five people shows thousand emotions, laughs. Arr, they're cute :D
Most people do not consider night to be an attractive experience - unless they are still up. 
Life is something that happens when you can't get to sleep. 
Boom, crush. Night, losers. Winning, duh. 

Sunday, 19 June 2011

Mind Mapping.

This is my Mind map about myself. It's so cute, isn't it?
Haha, i really had fun doing this English assignment. I feel like back to kindergarten.
Draw and colors everythings. Aww heaven <3 
I want more assignment like this draw color, draw color until end of semester. Can? 
And i promise, i will do all assignments given. Haha ! 
Okay click this picture to enlarge, then you will know about myself. 
Have great day everyone !

Sunday, 12 June 2011

Plants vs Zombies

Woo ! I'm addicted to this game now, its like a drug seriously. 
Common symptom ; Insomniaa. Arr !
First time, aku tengok game ni macam sangat la bosan, sebabnya aku bukanlah
 'game addict' sgtt.
Then i wonder, setiap kali orang main game ni, muka nak habis ketat,
bercakap sepatah sepatah. Rasa macam nak lempang je.
Aku tak review pun game ni, tapi siapa siapa nak tau, you can ask me directly :P
Okay done.
note ; been busy for a month, maybe. take care everyone :)

Monday, 6 June 2011

Crap -ed

Uh, today was tiring day ever. I've done so many things.
Today, I woke up early at 6.30am and I went to college for subject registration.
Lari sana, lari sini~
Tengok keadaan kampus tu pun dah rasa penat. 
Banyak lalang hidup beratur panjang dekat kaunter admin tu.
Arr ! Stupid management. They're killed by the system. Every semester was still the same !
Pftt~ I don't mind at all. As long as I can register my course subject before 13 June.
Tapii, tolong la improve / upgrade system and management tu. 
Takkan tiap tiap semester macam ni?
What and where our facilities?
Takkan nak tengok manusia manusia ni berdiri seharian depan kaunter tu semata mata nak register subjek?
5 - 6 hours buang masa macam tu je. Itu belum form kena reject dengan admin.
Kalau kena reject, nak kena queue for another 5 - 6 hours jugak atau
datang esok harinya 5-6 jam beratur lagi? Pftt~

Okay, enough babbling. Have a great day everyone. Goodnight :(

Friday, 3 June 2011

Class Schedule.

Kepada penjahat - penjahat KLMU,
Aku agak konfius sikit pasal subject registration ni. Aku taktahu sama ada kita boleh pilih kelas hari apa yang kita nak atau kita kena ambil semua kelas yang dalam list ni. Banyak makk aihh *sakit hati

Kalau boleh pilih kelas hari apa, aku nak bagi tau ;
Principle of Management        - Thursday 12:00 - 14:00 
Academic Reading & Writing - Thursday 14:00 - 16:00 

Garde Manger aku dah drop, then aku nak ambil Pengajian Islam. So aku kena berantam dengan admin hari isnin ni. Kepada penjahat penjahat nak ikut, ambil la date ni. Boleh kita memeriahkan keadaan dalam kelas sama sama.

Yang benau,
Butterbahn Deathsy,

Wednesday, 1 June 2011

Who said punks is just a total trash?

Who said punks just some idiot hopeless culture?
If only the 4 Skins had told us ACAB, 
If only The Ramones had let us know we were a happy family, 
If only The Buzzcocks had shown us how to do it ourself, 
If only Crass had shown us there are things more important than wealth,
If only The Vandals had shown us it was OK to smile, 
If only The Dead Kennedys had helped us put our government on trial, 
If only Rancid had played live, and brought with them that vibe, 
If we had Sick Of It All and Madball we could put them all on the frontline, 

If we had GG Allin we'd have learned it's OK to be hated, 
If we'd have had The Refused then we could have innovated, 
If we'd had Poison Idea then they couldn't push us over, 
If we'd had Minor Threat then we could have done it sober, 
If we'd have had Against Me we could have done it all unplugged, 
If we'd had Operation Ivy we could have done it then fucked off, 
If we had The Blitz, The Clash, Disorder, Propagandhi, 
The Exploited, NOFX and anyone that's handy, 

/The King Blues - What If Punk Never Happened

Tuesday, 31 May 2011

Attention judger !

Just because I'm talking to many girls, it doesn't mean I'm flirting.
I just being nice and i don't want to be rude with them.
It doesn't mean, aku guna perkataan 'you and i' tu kira aku nak mengayat.
Kalau tak suka guna 'you and i' tu. Aku boleh je guna 'kau aku'
Eh, simple thing la. I am easy going. Ada so-called-judger ni, aku taktau la apa dia punya mentaliti.
Maybe dia tak boleh nak tengok orang bersembang, atau dia rasa geli? LOL.
Why 'some people' sooo cares about this thing? Its common thing.  
Kenapa kalau aku bersembang dengan lelaki, korang tak cakap aku gay pulak?
I love to talk, i love to make friends. Do keep in touch buddy !
Let's talkk !

Saturday, 28 May 2011

Final Champions League 2011 Result.

Lionel Messi scored his 53rd goal in all competitions this season, as Barcelona won its third Champions League crown in the last six years with a dominating 3-1 win over Manchester United at Wembley Stadium on Sunday. Pedro and David Villa also scored for Barcelona, which also defeated United in the 2009 final. 
Wayne Rooney scored for United, which fell short of its fourth European title. The English club was in the final for the third time in the last four seasons. Barcelona was rewarded for an extended spell of possession in the 27th minute, as Andres Iniesta played a long ball through midfield to Xavi, who flicked a pass off to the right with the outside of his foot to find Pedro.
So the result is, Barcelona 3 - 1 Manchester United. Barcelona is once again the best team in European football. Congratulation Barcelona ! 

Friday, 27 May 2011

Oh come on. Let's talk.

Okay, I'm not going to offend anyone.
Everyone does 'sweet talk' kan? I don't know why everyone cares about 'sweet talk' whatever.
Eventho your boyfriend did it too, right ?
If you don't like this kind of people, just ignore them. No big deal :)
No need to talk about people behind their back.
Can you imagine world without sweet talker?
Okay, let's talk. No need to worry about this :)
Be yourself, don't be such an arrogant person.
Spread your love all over the world now !

Tuesday, 24 May 2011

I've broke my promise.

Un-expected. I'm terribly disappointed with myself. I've broke my promise.
This semester was totally horrible ! I didnt focus on my study. Everything's worst !
Final exam pun boleh miss satu paper. *sigh* . Everything's out from the box :(
I need change in my life. It's a must. Next semester i will focus on my study
I don't want to break my dreams, my future. 
Pray for me ! InsyaAllah :(

100 bucks for referral exam.
*my head is screwed up* 

Thursday, 19 May 2011

I am not that pathetic.

Haha, do you think i am still hoping on my past? Nahh, i am not that pathetic.
I feel happy with my life now.
I can do whatever i want with no restriction ;D
Friends are everything. They do cheer me up, they do make me laugh.

But i know, i will losing them in a future :)

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

Heck ! Whaddup hater?

Mcm ada something wrong kan dengan gambar ni kn? Yeah i know. He used to be a good hater, but at the same time he just fool himself, kan ? Im not to offend this guy, but he should'nt said so.
He talk about 'hot' people (whatever) but he didnt realize that his statement shows that he is actually "hot". 
Hm, tak payah la nak label orang bitch or whatever. Tengok siapa satan ? :)

Tuesday, 17 May 2011

Shh, silence please.

Silence exam? Well i guess, it will be more fun if we take the exam in a noisy. Let's have a discussion or open book? Nah, don't be a dreamer. The invigilator will kill you. Okay, leave me alone. I will be back soon. 
Wish me luck and pray for me. Shh, silence please :)

Monday, 16 May 2011

Bbycks Plushiecakezzzzzz !


Sunday, 15 May 2011


Woahwee ! Its time for final exam and we're dead ! Let's fight until last breath. 
Hit the best answer on the exam paper.
Get ready to take the exam and study study study !


Okay, enough babbling, I would like to wish all of you, all the best, good luck and be well prepared! :).

Sleep well, Goodnight !

Wednesday, 11 May 2011

Im begging for this.

Can i get this for free? HAHA. I am so in love in this camera, Diana F+.
It is lomography camera. Uhh, i am getting wet when i saw pictures taken by this camera.
You can check the review on this website :

Sunday, 1 May 2011

You know, I am silly.

I love the way you hold my hand. The way you hold me tight. The way you kiss my cheek.
The way you hold my chin to make me look at you when you know I'm pissed.
The way you lean in for a kiss when you know that's all i want.
The way we can sit on your couch for hours and do nothing.
The way you can tell when something is wrong.
The way you can tell me everything.
The way you pull me away from everyone just to whisper in my ear "I love you."
I miss all the things about you.
..but I should forget you and leave all the memories behind. Take a good care of yourself :)

Saturday, 30 April 2011

10 things to do before I die.

1. I want to fall in love with someone who truly love me.
2. I want to buy a house for my family. 
3. I want to backpack around Europe alone.
4. I want to meet all my ex-girlfriend.
5. I want to go for Hajj with my family. 
6. I want to learn play a piano with some degree of skill.
7. I want to have a secret garden that i can sleep over there peacefully :)
8. I want to be a volunteer, make a charity.
9. I want to plant a memorial tree with my name on.
10. I want to have my own restaurant.

..i hope i can do all the things, before I die. InsyaAllah :)

Wednesday, 27 April 2011


Minda aku dikawal dengan perasaan runsing yang berkecamuk teruk.
Hm, entah apa yang aku fikirkan....

Thursday, 21 April 2011

Beautiful Careless

I don't know what happened to me lately.
I had STML (short term memory loss) so badly. Am i old enough ? 
PFTTT ! Age is killing me dangg ! 

5 things I've done and it's worst. 
I am supercareless :)

1. I lost my phone but actually not (i put in my pencilbox) 
2. I left my car keys at sg. gabai.
3. I left my wallet at home and went out with my friends.
4. I forgot to charge my laptop when I want to do my assignments.
5. I tune my guitar till three strings broken simultaneously.


..many more. i forgot the rest :P
Can you find the cure for MEMORY LOSS?

Thursday, 14 April 2011

I hate you.

I really really miss this place, and i wanted to go there for a second time.
But i know, it will be different. Absolutely different. There's many things that i can remind about this place.
I wish, i could turn back time and do the same things again. I promise, it wont bore myself :)
A moment that i must remember.
I miss you so much.

Wednesday, 13 April 2011

It was you. Yeah, Its you !

I think i fall in love with someone. 
She always make me smile.
Dia lucuu ;D

Killing everyone.

I think i had too much talk about nothing but actually not.
I hurt everyone feelings but actually it's not my intention. 
I wanted to share about my experience but it's not necessary to them. 
I killed everyone, but actually i don't pull my trigger to their head. 
Self-love has very little to do with how you feel about your outer self. 
It's about accepting all of yourself. You've got to learn to accept the fool in you as well as the part that's got it going on. Keep your mind positive, and it will be great if you're enjoy every single second live in this beautiful world.
I don't kill anyone. I am not pointing my fingers. I just a stupid person who love to learn about LIFE.
Correct me if i am wrong. Shut my fucking mouth if i too loud.

Tuesday, 12 April 2011


These things make my mouth-watering. Aww, someday i will do this !